Only 2 weeks now of the Xeloda pill and then we are done. It is exciting, but it isn’t like we won’t ever be back at the doctor again. In February, Holly has a colonoscopy and a PT Scan already scheduled. Then every 3 months, we need to go in for blood tests. That goes on for about 5 years. Every year she gets a colonoscopy. I guess we will need to schedule that around something fun.
It’s nice to see this whole ordeal coming to an end. We’ve had some rough times recently that I haven’t really written about. In short, it has been a pretty terrible couple of weeks. Nothing that we weren’t expecting, but the cumulative effects of chemotherapy have caught up with her and knocked Holly down a couple of notches.
It sucks, but we are fighting through. It is amazing what the human body can withstand.
Only a month left. It sounds so positive doesn’t it.
But imagine feeling about as sick as you’ve ever felt. Now think about feeling that way for 3 - 4 months. The prospect of having to feel that way for at least another month is pretty unbearable. We see a light at the end of the tunnel, but it is fairly dim. It’s getting bigger, but it is coming at us slowly. It seems like it is coming at us at the same speed, but our perception is off. Like one of those physics shows about light speed.
What the hell, it’s only a month. I imagine that this is what prisoners feel like when they know that they only have a month left to go in their sentence. It’s only a month. A month to avoid getting shanked. Or maybe, what a parent feels like knowing that their child will be home from Iraq in a month. They are still getting shot at regularly, but it is only a month.
A month seems like a really long time to feel really horrible.
One of my favorite shows to watch is Wallstrip. Lindsay Campbell provides a very fun, quick, smart walk through individual stocks and meets regularly with leaders of companies and Wall Street.
I was catching up on some feeds last night and came across her recent post on Onyx Pharmaceuticals. ONXX is a company that makes Nexavar, a drug for liver cancer and hopefully lung cancer. Holly hasn’t been feeling well the past few days. It is a drag. This made me smile last night.