Hope For Holly

…Not that much fun anymore.

I came home last night to Holly having a lot of nausea, cramping & constipation. This is the exact opposite of the side effects that she has had to date. The thing that is really frustrating about chemotherapy is that, at least in our case, just as Holly is getting used to one of the side effects, it throws another one at us.

The scary part about constipation after colon surgery is that you always think blockage. An intestinal block is possible and can jack you all up.

It was a rough night. Without going into a whole lot of detail, I was a pretty early customer at the 24 hour pharmacy buying a Fleet Enema. Me and the stock boys.

It didn’t work. We don’t know if it is part chemo, part flu, part blockage or what, but this sucks. Not much had changed as of the time of this writing. We spent a lot of time on the phone with doctors and nurses, but not much in the way of results. I’m scared that tomorrow, if things aren’t better, we will be back in the hospital.

Mentally, being sick all the time is starting to take a toll on Holly. All she wants to do is go for a run, do Pilate’s, or just go through the day without being asked how she is doing. This is the worst it has been since her surgeries. December 28 is the last day of Xeloda. I have a feeling that it is going to be a really long and rough 7 days.

It is going to be rough. We’ll get through it.